Dusk

While I was dreading doing yard work today, a duskywings of some sort flew into the yard and started snacking on some weeds.

This gave me the perfect excuse to go retrieve the camera.

What I like about my 100mm lens is that itโ€™s such a great piece of glass that I get to see details using it that Iโ€™d never notice with my naked eye. Itโ€™s not the most expensive lens I have, but itโ€™s by far the best one as far as optical quality and ease of use.

Hereโ€™s the photo of the duskywings โ€“ itโ€™s isnโ€™t that great, but I like it because the 100mm allowed me to see the iridescent sheen on the underside of the wings. Itโ€™s really beautiful.

dusky

And I also thought it looked pretty cool run through Photohopโ€™s oil paint filter, and then having it sharpened heavily.

paint

Alex

"If only there were evil people somewhere insidiously committing evil deeds, and it were necessary only to separate them from the rest of us and destroy them. But the line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being. And who is willing to destroy a piece of his own heart?"

-Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn

Convincing

How a general became convinced that allowing women into combat roles was the right thing to do โ€“ because they were already doing it.

Dempsey took command of the Army’s 1st Armored Division in June 2003, when Iraqi insurgents were starting to target American troops with sniper fire, grenades and roadside bombs. As he prepared for a trip outside his headquarters, he took a moment to introduce himself to the crew of his Humvee.

“I slapped the turret gunner on the leg and I said, ‘Who are you?’ And she leaned down and said, I’m Amanda.’ And I said, ‘Ah, OK,’ ” Dempsey told reporters at the Pentagon.

The reason for the slapping on the leg is a turret gunner stands outside of the Humvee or other vehicle, in a sort of rotating affixture with typically a .50 caliber cannon. Like this:

Humvee_turret_showing_fifty_caliber_MG

If the general had merely called up, itโ€™s unlikely the gunner would even hear. Slapping on the leg or even calling on the radio is a typical way to get a turret gunnerโ€™s attention. Iโ€™ve done it a number of times myself in training.

Prices

Iโ€™m surprised by how glum and ugly the inside of even very-pricy houses usually are. Iโ€™ve found that it doesnโ€™t matter if we look at rental houses that cost $800 a month or $5,000 a month โ€“ most of them look not fit to be inhabited by humans.

Are people really so habituated to the inhumanity of their interior environments, even well-off people? I cannot explain it.

I know adding windows and such is expensive โ€“ but itโ€™s not that expensive, considering how long houses last. Spending $5,000 now on larger and better windows pays off forevermore.

And houses for sale are no better, either. I guess Iโ€™m also now a house snob, but Iโ€™ve looked at maybe 500 houses online in the last week. Iโ€™ve seen maybe one Iโ€™d even consider living in.

Even in the realm of very expensive houses, until you get up into $5+ million dollar homes, you get more rooms, sure, but still the same tiny, shitty, poorly-lit and dim, depressing ones.

Designing our own house one day is the only option. I canโ€™t believe people choose to live in such shitholes even when they donโ€™t have to (that is, even those who have enough money to make a better choice, donโ€™t).

Pinball

This made me laugh.

Like so many things which are illicit, though, the attraction of pinball only increased in the prohibition years following World War II, and, by the 1950s, the quickest route to proving your rebel status in America was to be seen within a few feet of a pinball machine.

The entire article just shows that America has always been a priggish, prudish country of Puritan anti-sybarites.

Phot

Iโ€™m a photographer by avocation. I take many photos of many things.

And yet I will never understand the urge that some people have โ€“ usually the worst photographers, too โ€“ to take a photo of every damn thing that happens to them.

I never take photos in a place where it will annoy other people โ€“ photography is a context-destroyer for many people, and itโ€™s also attention-grabbing. Itโ€™s best to be avoided in most public situations. And frankly, some schlemiel taking photos of his grilled cheese sandwich in a restaurant would and does bother even me, an inveterate photographer.

Considering

Considering US women have already been fighting and dying in combat for a long time, itโ€™s about time it was made official.

I was in an airborne unit, along with many women. Cook, mechanic, infantry โ€“ you all jump in. And guess what? The enemy doesnโ€™t not shoot you just because you are a cook when you are falling from the sky onto their airfield.

And with no real front or rear anymore in the sort of wars we fight (agree with them or not), this just formalizes something that was already reality.

On learning

One of my all-time favorite books is about math.

Itโ€™s Infinity and the Mind, by Rudy Rucker. I was reading adult mathematically-themed books and books about physics by the time I was in the fifth grade.

I understand most mathematical concepts โ€“ including some very high-level ones โ€“ better than many who have scored in the top echelon of students.

As a for instance, for several years I was friends online with a student at Stanford. He was in their quantum program. Itโ€™s a bit more technical than I want to get in here, but our dispute was over determinism and probability in quantum systems. His argument was that determinism was ruled out by quantum systems. I argued (correctly) that determinism was perfectly possible under several different valid at-the-time interpretations and probability models of QM. We argued about it for a long time, and then I told him to go ask his professor.

He later sheepishly told me that heโ€™d talked to his professor, and that I was right.

The details donโ€™t matter, and even if Iโ€™d been wrong, they still wouldnโ€™t matter โ€“ the point is that I understand the concepts just fine in many areas where even those who practice using those methods donโ€™t really understand their implications or exactly what it is they are doing when they use infinitesimals\limits or many other abstruse mathematical tools.

However, for the life of me, I cannot actually calculate (usually) even the simplest math problems that would be quite easy for a middle-schooler. I also cannot at all play chess (despite being in the chess club and playing hundreds of games over two years), I believe for similar reasons, despite understanding it conceptually just fine. Iโ€™d guess these two facts are related, as whatever cognitive deficit I have expresses itself in these two arenas. Also, I cannot solve even the simplest logic problem, no matter how long I spend or how patient I am.

This post originally intended to talk about teaching kids math using soul- and curiosity-destroying techniques, how the โ€œtransfer effectโ€ that supposedly makes teaching math help thinking in other arenas is completely false, and the opportunity cost of these failed methodologies โ€“ but already this entry is too long, so I will just stop here for the moment.

Later

This is extremely similar to the technique I have used to so successfully lose weight.

Studies discussed in Willpower by Baumeister show that the most successful method of, for example, not eating MnMs is to tell yourself that you can have some later.

People who said they could not have any wore down their willpower and eventually gave in.  People who said sure, they could have some, but not now, didnโ€™t wear down their willpower and in the end, often didnโ€™t have the candy later either.

What I do instead is to have a designated day where I can eat whatever I like. Since it is physically impossible for me to eat more than 4,000 calories or so in the 19-hour period I am awake that day (I donโ€™t sleep much), it allows me to eat with abandon and be done with it without making me fat again.

I see some chocolate I really want? Yum, looks good, if I still crave it on Saturday, I can eat a whole bucket of it.

Damn, that pecan pie at the grocery store looks great. Iโ€™ll have it later on Saturday if I really want it.

Etc.

Itโ€™s also a great method of eating much better food. I eat far better now than when I just mindlessly stuffed into my gaping maw whatever I pleased โ€“ and that includes every day, and not just on what I call โ€œdessert day.โ€ (Though on dessert day, I also tend to eat higher-quality junk food, even.)

That has many advantages. Higher-quality food if you can afford it is far more filling. I can eat less and fewer calories and be full longer. A $20 meal from Fresh Market fills me up for 2-3x as long as a very large meal from a fast food restaurant (about 10-12 hours for Fresh Market, about 4-6 hours for fast food).

But the blog post is perfectly right about helping depletion of willpower. I no longer have to exert all that much willpower at all to resist food Iโ€™d like to eat.

I just know that if I really want it, I can eat it all I like on Saturday. Very easy.

And thatโ€™s not to say it will work for everyone. Iโ€™m an extreme outlier in most areas, so it probably wonโ€™t. And frankly I donโ€™t care if it works for anyone but me, as it does in fact very much work for me.

Sometimes

Sometimes โ€“ ok, most of the time — I think I was not born on this planet.

โ€œYet no matter how old you are, the music you listen to for the rest of your life is probably what you listened to when you were an adolescent.โ€

From this article.

I rarely these days listen to that much from when I was an adolescent. An occasional Smashing Pumpkins song, perhaps, mixed in with all the other great music Iโ€™ve found in the past five or six years.

And yet I know most people listen to what they did when they were 16 for some reason, and ignore all else.

You humans, you are strange and incomprehensible.

One day, I will return to my home planet.

H2Ohyeah

Iโ€™ve now upgrowed (new strong past tense of โ€œupgradeโ€) to Waterfox, a true 64-bit browser.

Itโ€™s a little bit slower at day-to-day usage according to benchmarks, but nothing I can notice. It has no 2GB process limit โ€“ which I often exceed โ€“ so now I can use all 32GB of memory and not have slowdowns when I have more than few dozen tabs open for a while.

I told yaโ€™ll Iโ€™m a heavy user.

Inaug

Was there an inauguration or something yesterday?

Great, another four years of a granny-starvinโ€™ drone murderer. Just what the country needs.

To be fair, itโ€™ll probably be better on the margins than the other granny-starvinโ€™ murderer who didnโ€™t get elected, but if it only matters on the margins, it doesnโ€™t matter much.