A Stab in the Dark

My mother stabbed me. I don’t know how to keep going on.

My mom tried to stab me and got so close to doing so that the knife tip cut my shirt but never actually made it through to the skin before I caught her arm. (It wasn’t quite as close as that sounds; the shirt was baggy and it flared out when I was retreating to avoid the stabbin’.)

Ah, North Florida. There’s no place like it. Thank fucking Zeus.

Big Head

I’m not left or right nor anything that makes any sense in terms of the limited terminology of these times; I’m channeling an ethos and ideology from 10,000 years in the future.

I’m wearing my medium cap and I’m doing it. Though my medium cap is large because I have a big head.

Choose

I realized this too pretty early. If you’re willing to accept the consequences (and I am), you can do whatever you want. I don’t want to be in a meeting? I leave. Someone’s abusing me? Just walking out works fine. Just try to stop me. You’ll find out what “world of hurt” means.

Being an adult means you get to choose. So choose. Quit being an utter wimp.

Looked Up

Agreed. I think the same is true the other way too (or for same-sex couples). This tendency to let one’s self go is worse in women (or at least I notice more), but women who are like, “He should still love me even though I now weigh 500 pounds and am one with my couch!” seem to me to be fucking insane. Why would you think that?

And then men are castigated for caring that the woman who was 120 pounds and fit when they got together now can’t be distinguished from the herd if she gets too close to a group of bovines.

No thanks.

Blind Unspotted

Hey everyone, r/truckers wouldnโ€™t let me post this but I had to get it off my chest after a couple years.

Terrible story, but probably an example of inattentional blindness. The person driving the car wasn’t expecting to see a large tractor-trailer blocking the road (and the trailer part is often the same color as a grey sky), so just did not see it.

I have seen things like this happen personally (though not resulting in death) so I know it occurs. I’m always surprised by what people do not see/notice as I have a really wide attention and see things others miss most of the time.

Then Now

How did you feel about your mom as a teenager and how do you feel about her now?

As a teenager I hated her, but not because of the usual teenage angst reasons. No, I despised her because she was a negligent and mildly abusive alcoholic who had fucked up her own life in very preventable ways and blamed everyone else for it. I vowed not to be like her. And I succeeded in that.

Now, I no longer hate her1. I still think she was terrible and could’ve done better but I have more understanding now.

My mom was someone like me with a large ego and extremely high intelligence2 who thought she was special — but the difference between us is that she never did anything to demonstrate that she was exceptional. She just thought people should recognize how amazing she was with no achievements to her name. In that respect, she was sort of like the incels who sit around in their basements making no mark on the world and expect to have supermodel girlfriends and plush jobs fall in their laps (in the former case, literally).

She thought she deserved the world, did nothing to achieve that, and was bitter because it didn’t just happen as if by magic. Very incel-like, as I said above.

I have some sympathy for her plight because in a different world I might’ve ended up like her. Not too likely but at least I can see the path. She married my dad at 19 to rebel against her parents, got pregnant (with me) and the bitterness and regret followed from there.

And after that, instead of actually bettering her life, she decided she wanted to become a party girl at age 29. And that went about as well as you’d expect.

She died as a result of her drug use and alcoholism, much diminished, at 64. Her life was bleak throughout and the only joy she got was from drinking, I think.

I don’t miss her and I feel pity for what and who she became.

  1. She’s been dead for a few years now.
  2. Before she destroyed her brain with alcohol, IQ in the 160-170 range.

Space Com

I agree with that, with some caveats. Communism is contra human nature; space travel is contra human biology. Which is easier to change, human nature or human biology?

The future is vast and our successors will find out. Probably will be changing a bit of both, to be fair.

Ink Delink

I have no interest in starting something like this, but I bet you could make significant money by spooling up a dating site that only allowed women with no tattoos.

A lot of men would fork over some serious cheddar to be on that. I would, were I single. I’d probably consider up to $500 a month, though I know I am an outlier there. In the $50-$80 a month range is probably more realistic.

Knowing Gun

I believe that Covid was a lab leak, but I don’t think “knew” is the right word here. “Knew” implies certitude, which we’ll never have. There will never be a smoking gun. I’m sure China destroyed that long ago.

“Beyond reasonable doubt” as stated in the intelligence report is more accurate. The preponderance of evidence and simple common sense all point to a lab leak. The evidence against this conclusion appear to be all engineered or an attempted coping mechanism by scientists who are worried about their funding being affected by the consequences of revealing such a large mistake (though lab leaks happen rather frequently, just usually not so consequentially).

It is good to see the lab leak hypothesis going from “wacky conspiracy theory that only terrible, terrible racists believe” to relatively accepted.

Gen What

I think it could happen. A whole lot of the left is against anything that you do to improve yourself physically because they see it as “eugenics.” That includes working out, drugs, plastic surgery and anything that might give you some sort of advantage over anyone else. I mean, Vonnegut wrote a whole damn short story about this phenomenon many years ago. And it’s only gotten worse since.

So of course liberals would be against GLP-1 drugs because they make you look and feel better. And can’t have that.

Today, I did lots of eugenics. I worked out hard enough that my arms still aren’t functioning quite right. I’m gonna do some more eugenics tomorrow too.

KO

Geared Up for a Fight with a Bat, But Knocked Out at the Junction.

It’s always said you can’t fight two people at once and win. And most times, that’s true. But if you’re fighting untrained people, you’ve been in a lot of fights and if you’re not completely ambushed, wining is actually doable1.

Notice on the second guy how the person being attacked uses the assailant’s head as leverage to twist that second attacker and throw him down on his back. Classic Greco-Roman wrestling move I also learned in krav maga class back in the day. You don’t have to be bigger or even stronger than your attacker to do that move, though it helps. But you do have to do it like you mean it.

And a bat is not actually that great a weapon especially if you’re not extremely strong. A collapsing baton is better. With a bat, miss once and you’re fucked (as can be seen there).

  1. Yes, I’ve done it.

Razor Raiser

That Covid was a lab leak is to me nearly certain. Nothing else makes any sort of sense, given the evidence and Occam’s Razor. Of course it was kept quiet. I mean, first of all, that’s what intelligence agencies generally do is keep shit on the DL. Second, everyone is eager to kowtow to China because they are a big dog with stacks of cash.