When I was younger, I had little sympathy for nor understanding of religious or even spiritual people. I just couldn’t grasp why someone would want to contaminate their minds with such obvious falsehoods.

But life asks so much and takes so much along the way. In the end, it takes everything. Now I understand more the spiritual urge. No, this isn’t some conversion. Religion wouldn’t have comforted me when I was young and it’s never something I’ll be involved in. All of the people who tormented me when I was young claimed to be Christians. Every single one. Religion and spirituality in general is simply not for me for that and a host of other reasons.

I can comprehend now, though, why someone would be interested in those things. Even more so now that I’ve gotten past the scientific attempted obfuscation and normalization of just how strange our universe is and realized how nonsensical is its actual operation (and no, STEM types, just because the universe might be deterministic doesn’t mean that it’s any less weird). When you understand quantum mechanics and related, the universe is unbearably odd, even absent any mysticism.

With what life demands and the explanations it gives (none), seeking for something comprehensible that is more than the howling void makes sense to me. I have doubts of finding it, but I see why you’d want to look.